I wish I could take credit for "The Toolbox", but it's actually something I was introduced to when I first got clean. A woman named Sharon would talk about it every morning, at the 7:30 Wake-up meeting. It was actually her answer for everything: Bad day? "The Toolbox". Boyfriend cheating? "The Toolbox". Company Christmas party?… Continue reading “The Toolbox”
June 5, 2011. Dear Diary: Crawling on the filthy floor, dodging needles, old cigarette butts, and moldy fast food wrappers, I was on my hands and knees today looking for a tooth. An expensive tooth. Well, more accurately, an expensive dental crown that fell out of my son’s mouth a couple of days ago.… Continue reading Dana’s Story – Recovering Beautifully.
Hey friends! I've been hiding one of my truths from you guys, and I didn't want to voice it until I had a solution. Thanks to a suggestion from one of my supporters, Tara, I think I've found it. I've been carrying a tremendous amount of guilt lately. I speak openly and honestly about addiction,… Continue reading A Collection of Soul-Feeding Links to Follow, BEFORE You Lose Your Mind.
They say ignorance is bliss. I don't find this to be true. Ignorance in my case, was the catalyst to my self destruction. I remember the very first time I experienced my drug of choice. I was sitting in a computer chair at my best friends house, and burning a Dave Matthews C.D. to play in my… Continue reading Ignorance is Bliss?
The smell of freshly baked cookies greeted me as I entered our tiny, two bedroom apartment. My mother often slept during the day, so the delicious aroma was a bit perplexing. My mother was a bartender and worked nights, usually staying out until the wee hours of the morning. She slept during the day and most times… Continue reading Why Did I Start Using Drugs?
Hello friends! And a big fat hello to all my new friends that just joined in on the craziness today! Whew. Speaking of today. I don't want to braaaaaggggg.....buttttt..... We made it onto the news guys! A real live news channel with reporters and teleprompters and fancy business clothes! whaaaat?!?! In case you missed it,… Continue reading We Made It On The News, Guys!
Hey buds! I'm sitting here with a fancy avocado mask on my face, trying my best to stay looking like I'm 21 for as long as possible. But I need to get something off my chest. I have always believed in being completely transparent with you all, 'cuz you're my peoples. So I need to make… Continue reading My Drug Of Choice Is More – A Confession.
To love an addict is one of the heartbreaking positions anyone could be in. You spend years building a bond with this person, and in the blink of an eye, they are someone else. Someone you no longer recognize. It's their face, their voice, their hands and their smile; but the person they used to be is… Continue reading To Love An Addict…
Forgive. It is a powerful word. To forgive basically means to accept, and move past what you feel was an injustice to your sensibilities. The word forgive is terrifying at times, because it means letting our guard down – letting someone off the hook for something we feel is unforgivable. We feel that if we… Continue reading When You Don’t Want To Forgive, Do It Anyway.
In 2009 I had my first stint in rehab. I have a very vivid memory of a time when our counselor gathered us all into a room and had us sit in chairs that were placed in various places throughout the space. He dimmed the lights, asked us to close our eyes, and began talking us… Continue reading My Top 5 Favorite Meditations For When My Brain Needs A Vacation.
"Do what you feel in your heart to be right - for you'll be criticized anyway" - Eleanor Roosevelt Hey friends! As some of you may know, The Daily Mail contacted me. They had seen one of my blog posts on Bluntmoms.com and wanted to do a story about my recovery from addiction, and motherhood. … Continue reading Diversity Is A Beautiful Thing.
As most of you know, I have been in recovery from addiction for 4 years. What you may not know, is that I didn't stay clean all that time, by myself. There is a community of people just like me, that knew the secret of staying clean. I leaned on these people as I began learning to navigate the… Continue reading 10 Life Changing Pieces of Advice I Learned From Recovering Addicts-That Apply To Anyone.
Hey there you little rebel you. How's it going? So listen - I know you don't know me, which probably makes it super creepy that I'm writing to you, but I've got some pretty important stuff to tell you, so you gotta hear me out. I can tell you - from experience - that being a… Continue reading A Letter To The Teen Who’s Experimenting With Drugs.
Today was one of those days. You know the days-where the universe is conspiring against you, and you decide to throw a party, of the pity variety. It's only 9:30, and everything that could go wrong, has. I woke up to find that my sweet baby girl had turned her crib into a life sized… Continue reading “Attitude of Bratitude”
This is what my addiction feels like..